I woke up the other day crying. A recurring dream that a person I love has left me. That my attempts to get to them fail. The phone doesn't work, the lift doesn't work. For one reason or another the attempts to connect to find them, reach them - FAIL. And it's painful. It feels deeply painful. It's been a recurring dream over the years. Some deep wounds just want to be heard, loved and understood for the depth of the pain that goes right back to childhood. Not healed or transformed. I don't have an 'answer' for this one and that's OK.